i'm undone!

There must be a name for this condition.  It's really starting to worry me.  My kids have been worried about it for a long time but I really didn't think I had a problem. . . way back then.  I had some very good reasons for doing what I did, but now, this is just a habit.  I keep undoing things.

Most of the time, I undo things that I have made myself.   It doesn't matter what kind of project I am working on, sewing, knitting, crocheting, I undo nearly half of my work.  When I am sewing and I don't like what I have done I get out my Exacto knife and let her rip.  When crocheting or knitting, I find myself pulling out whatever and rolling it all back up into a ball.  Am I a perfectionist?  I think the problem is bigger than that.

When I am clothes shopping I don't ask myself "Does this shirt fit?"  I tell myself "I can make this fit" and I take it home and promptly unpick it.  Before I know it there are pieces in my lap where a shirt used to be.  Then the pieces go into a baggie and the baggie goes onto the "needs to be put back together" shelf.  What is that?  The word counterproductive comes to mind.

Okay, so I take things apart.  The bigger problem is I don't put them back together.  I just let the pieces all languish there on the shelf.  

My poor husband!  We were in Utah last week and one night we went out with our daughter and her husband.  "What is this?" she asked her dad pointing to his sleeve.  He had packed a shirt that had been subject to my scissors and there he was in public with unfinished sleeves.  I realized then, the problem had gone too far.

Seriously, I am going to turn over a new leaf.  This self defeating behavior must stop.  My new mantra will be 'get it together' or 'leave it together' or 'leave it alone!'  Someone needs to come and take my scissors away.  Pleeeeeeeeaaaasssseee!